I Want to Write Again
I haven’t written a Medium article in a couple of months. This is the longest I’ve gone without writing a weekly article in a long, long time. I don’t know what happened. It’s been so hard for me to write. I’ve been busy, tired, and frankly, a bit burnt out. Last night I told myself that I’d write something, anything. When you haven’t written in a while, writing becomes a scary thing. I’ve opened Medium a couple of times and started writing but haven’t been able to finish. Sometimes, you just have to write something, and whatever comes out is good enough.
These past few months have been really chaotic. My job has been stressful, I went on a big international trip, I moved apartments, and am now starting school again. There’s been a lot of change and the routine I had built so meticulously over the past 3 years has been disrupted. I’ve realized how dependent I am on my routine, almost to a fault. These past few months have taught me that I can be successful without a routine, but also, that it takes time to build a routine. I’ve been working to find my new spots, and habits in my new space. I haven’t figured everything out, but it is slowly coming together. I now know where I like to sit in my apartment to eat breakfast, which lights I like to keep on at night, and where I can do my work. All of these things take time and I want to give myself grace to figure these things out.
I’m making a commitment to write an article a week, starting today. Over the years, writing has been so good for me. It’s a way to process my thoughts and release some of the stresses in my life. Here’s to a fresh start.